A couple of people wake up the next morning, not wanting to get out of bed probably, cursing each moment! Probably because they have no jobs, or they feel frustrated bout what's going on in their lives, because they should have been married, or a worrisome relationship or friend! Forgetting the most important thing "the beauty of each morning" waking up to a new day, new hope, forgetting that there's still hope, not noticing the chances, hopes and possibilities that come with each morning! For every morning I wake up! Whether or not I have 200naira in my wallet, whether or not its certain what's going to happen that day, something around me reminds me that I am privileged, The fact that I'm able to see a new day, only gives me the reassurance that my situation can still change!
There are many nights when I want to go to bed and I pray inside, I first beg God to make me see the next day, and conclude my prayers by saying that if its his will that I should not see the next day,then he should forgive all my sins! Yeah its a scam, lol! So for someone like me to wake up the next morning! Chei you don't know how much it means to me!
Let me use this morning as an example, October 06 2010 7:45am, I woke up (not saying any prayers) went to pee, then I picked up my Blackberry( yea I am an addict) checked my bbm's (black berry messages) my twitter timeline, and posted a tweet on twitter that read "I have a very big God" I saw some facebook notifications, my cousin had dropped a comment on one of my pictures, haven't seen or heard from him in 16years, I didn't know when I started laughing out loud! Why?? Kai I remember him very well, Trust?? Tiny Trust lwkmd (laugh won kill me die) roflmao (rolling on the floor laughing my a** out)He used to play with saliva when we were growing up, that was his weapon of mass destruction, lol! So when he looks for trouble and he doesn't want me to retaliate or beat him up, he'll just pour it on his palm and threaten me with it, eeeeeeeew! He has grown (well we all have), I went through his pictures to update the memory I had of him!
Then I began to appreciate what it takes to see the next morning, the many years I have spent on earth, how far I have come though I haven't gotten to where I am heading to, but then I have made it this far not by my power nor by might , so why nag and worry and bother my head over some certain issues? Yea its only normal to Think, but worrying??? Lai lai, I refuse to be worried! its a beautiful wednesday morning! And I appreciate the Beauty of each morning! Every morning till God says its enough . . .like I always tell my family and friends whatever we are going through "a ma waa alrigh" (we'll be alright)
*yawn* am still sleepy, Iya micheal Jollof rice on my mind, that's what I'm gonna eat! Have a blessed day jare! Till the next time I am inspired see ya, catch ya, laera.
Wednesday 6 October 2010
Saturday 2 October 2010
Dear Diary . . .
Dear diary its 11:30pm had a long day, didn't get to scribble anything down yesterday! Yeah yesterday was dad's 40th day prayer (that's gist for another day, it went very very well)! I can officially say that life goes on! Oh yea it does . . . Typha eventually changed her BBM(black berry messenger) display picture to something that didn't have to do with daddy! She's obviously getting better!
Dear Diary, I cried again today! Someone upset me! She said I was being unreal bout my love for my dad! How could she say that, DD? How? I said I wasn't going to write something that had to do with daddy in a while and yet she made me! DD(Dear Diary) you know I loved my daddy right? Remember I told you bout how close we were? Remember I told you how when I was in Junior secondary I'll fall ill at the slightest opportunity just cos I knew daddy would be there! Remember when I told you of how I became his mini p.a at about that time? And how he almost killed a bike guy for hitting me! And how he had this mischievous,happy n smiling face! Am sure you remember everything sef!
Gosh . . Now am angry self . . And she's supposed to be my friend o! I understand that she's got bottled up aggression! But DD how could she have been so insensitive as to say a thing like that! I was really upset! But then I read all the stuff I had told you previously about ma dad! Am sure you know I love him right? Yea am sure you do, and he knows I did and still do.
Asides that DD, Nike came today! Yea, same nike o. . Funny enough we were all having a conversation . . Come to think of it all us involved have lost one parent at some time. . Well we had to go out. I, Morenike (lol, yea same Morenike), Deola and Nike had to go out. Lol . . No DD not out as in out like that! Remember last week I told you I wanted to eat sharwama!! I finally had my sharwama today, laughed heartily, and at least I had a reason to be happy! Guess what DD, someone says am just like my dad, kai my head was swelling! Woh DD am kind of tired! *yawn* I'll give you more gist tomorrow! Thanks for the space and time . . .
P.S : Dear Diary, I'm going to copy this to my blog . . Yea I know we said we should keep anything I write in you strictly between u and I. Am sorry jare . . I promise I won't do it again :D
Dear Diary, I cried again today! Someone upset me! She said I was being unreal bout my love for my dad! How could she say that, DD? How? I said I wasn't going to write something that had to do with daddy in a while and yet she made me! DD(Dear Diary) you know I loved my daddy right? Remember I told you bout how close we were? Remember I told you how when I was in Junior secondary I'll fall ill at the slightest opportunity just cos I knew daddy would be there! Remember when I told you of how I became his mini p.a at about that time? And how he almost killed a bike guy for hitting me! And how he had this mischievous,happy n smiling face! Am sure you remember everything sef!
Gosh . . Now am angry self . . And she's supposed to be my friend o! I understand that she's got bottled up aggression! But DD how could she have been so insensitive as to say a thing like that! I was really upset! But then I read all the stuff I had told you previously about ma dad! Am sure you know I love him right? Yea am sure you do, and he knows I did and still do.
Asides that DD, Nike came today! Yea, same nike o. . Funny enough we were all having a conversation . . Come to think of it all us involved have lost one parent at some time. . Well we had to go out. I, Morenike (lol, yea same Morenike), Deola and Nike had to go out. Lol . . No DD not out as in out like that! Remember last week I told you I wanted to eat sharwama!! I finally had my sharwama today, laughed heartily, and at least I had a reason to be happy! Guess what DD, someone says am just like my dad, kai my head was swelling! Woh DD am kind of tired! *yawn* I'll give you more gist tomorrow! Thanks for the space and time . . .
P.S : Dear Diary, I'm going to copy this to my blog . . Yea I know we said we should keep anything I write in you strictly between u and I. Am sorry jare . . I promise I won't do it again :D
Wednesday 8 September 2010
Sleep well Daddy, we love you. . . . August 24 1937 - August 10 2010
So the past 1month one line of a song (can't remember the title or who sang it) that keeps coming to my mind is "yesterday I got a call and it said that my daddy died". August 10th 2010, got that phone call!!! I was told daddy had died!!! Which daddy??? My daddy??? I was told I screamed I can't even remember! I wasn't sure I heard right! I kept telling myself that it was a mistake! Probably my sister didn't get the message! How could daddy die? How?? How??? There was no one to answer that question! I cried and laughed at the same time!
Made some calls to feel better! I tried so hard to hide the pain and tears in my heart! As I write this piece I've got tears in my eyes! Tears of a daughter who lost her dad, tears of a daughter who'll miss her dad so bad! I find it hard referring to him in "past tense"!
My daddy is a good man, I remember growing up, primary school! Daddy made sure we were comfortable! I can categorically say that he spoilt me silly! It was the same with my other 11sibblings, he made sure he was there for us, he treated each one of us like 12eggs(I am the 11th child) very fragile, to be handled with care! He was so full of life, very funny and interesting! He was always willing to listen,He's the most generous man I have ever known, asides from my 11 siblings! I had other people I knew as my siblings, almost 20 other people who called him daddy and he played the role of a father! He carried everyone along, he tried to be there for as many people as he could be there for! I remember the late night stories, I remember him teaching me how to speak my language I remember the many times he'd scold us, (He was stylishly strict) I remember the tears in his eyes everytime anyone of us was sick (especially me cos I was always falling ill), too many memories, 1 million and one, if told to write a billion words essay on "My Dad" I'll go on and on!
He wanted all his kids to be educated and learned, well he achieved that! He had doctors, a pharmacist, an architect bankers etc as children, he had 18grandkids, for everytime I read about his passing and his achievements! I am proud, I didn't know my dad achieved so much! Yea he used to tell us how he was a brilliant student and all, he'd show us his results and certificates to encourage us!he was a very supportive and protective father!
At least all these should console me, but even if he died at 120years I'll still cry this tears! I used to say that the only 2men I ever really loved 100% were my dad and my kid bro! Now daddy's gone! I wish I had gotten into school early enough so he'd have seen me graduate from university! Who's going to be my daddy on my wedding day, who's going to give my kids auchi names? Who am I going to cry to and talk to when things are unclear! Every time I got a job or I got something doing! Daddy would encourage me and smile! He told my mum to tell me to call him a week before he died! Little did I know that was the last I'll hear from him! I remember what he told me that day and I'll never forget!
Most times I wish I could see him! Atleast talk to him, ask him a few questions! Tell him a few things! I wish I could get one last chance! Its still like a dream! I hope I wake up soon! I look at his picture and it feels like he's staring at me, talking to me, trying to say something! I know after a while I'll get used to the fact that he'll be away for a very looong time! For now am allowed to lock myself in the toilet and cry sometimes, right???
I understand that we all would return to God someday! It was Daddy's time! God needed him! He was fulfilled and he had completed his assignment on earth! August 19 the day he was buried, the wailing women, the sad faces of the men, the jampacked Yakubu compound, and the rain that fell as soon as he was lowered into the grave and stopped as the spot was refilled! I realised how important and great my daddy was! I love my dad and having him as my dad is the best thing that happened to me! He was a father, my friend, my mentor! And every time I hear anyone talk about him, or anytime I read his some of his writings! I smile . . . . Because he lived a good life, he lived long enough to see his kids grow and to see his grandchildren (18 of them) he was an achiever! And he'd NEVER be forgotten. Sleep well Alhaji Ikhazs Yakubu my father my friend ,my mentor!!!! Am sure NIPR (Nigerian Institute of Public Relations) would also not forget you! You left a significant mark with everything you did , everyone you knew and everywhere you went!!! Till we meet again!!!!
Made some calls to feel better! I tried so hard to hide the pain and tears in my heart! As I write this piece I've got tears in my eyes! Tears of a daughter who lost her dad, tears of a daughter who'll miss her dad so bad! I find it hard referring to him in "past tense"!
My daddy is a good man, I remember growing up, primary school! Daddy made sure we were comfortable! I can categorically say that he spoilt me silly! It was the same with my other 11sibblings, he made sure he was there for us, he treated each one of us like 12eggs(I am the 11th child) very fragile, to be handled with care! He was so full of life, very funny and interesting! He was always willing to listen,He's the most generous man I have ever known, asides from my 11 siblings! I had other people I knew as my siblings, almost 20 other people who called him daddy and he played the role of a father! He carried everyone along, he tried to be there for as many people as he could be there for! I remember the late night stories, I remember him teaching me how to speak my language I remember the many times he'd scold us, (He was stylishly strict) I remember the tears in his eyes everytime anyone of us was sick (especially me cos I was always falling ill), too many memories, 1 million and one, if told to write a billion words essay on "My Dad" I'll go on and on!
He wanted all his kids to be educated and learned, well he achieved that! He had doctors, a pharmacist, an architect bankers etc as children, he had 18grandkids, for everytime I read about his passing and his achievements! I am proud, I didn't know my dad achieved so much! Yea he used to tell us how he was a brilliant student and all, he'd show us his results and certificates to encourage us!he was a very supportive and protective father!
At least all these should console me, but even if he died at 120years I'll still cry this tears! I used to say that the only 2men I ever really loved 100% were my dad and my kid bro! Now daddy's gone! I wish I had gotten into school early enough so he'd have seen me graduate from university! Who's going to be my daddy on my wedding day, who's going to give my kids auchi names? Who am I going to cry to and talk to when things are unclear! Every time I got a job or I got something doing! Daddy would encourage me and smile! He told my mum to tell me to call him a week before he died! Little did I know that was the last I'll hear from him! I remember what he told me that day and I'll never forget!
Most times I wish I could see him! Atleast talk to him, ask him a few questions! Tell him a few things! I wish I could get one last chance! Its still like a dream! I hope I wake up soon! I look at his picture and it feels like he's staring at me, talking to me, trying to say something! I know after a while I'll get used to the fact that he'll be away for a very looong time! For now am allowed to lock myself in the toilet and cry sometimes, right???
I understand that we all would return to God someday! It was Daddy's time! God needed him! He was fulfilled and he had completed his assignment on earth! August 19 the day he was buried, the wailing women, the sad faces of the men, the jampacked Yakubu compound, and the rain that fell as soon as he was lowered into the grave and stopped as the spot was refilled! I realised how important and great my daddy was! I love my dad and having him as my dad is the best thing that happened to me! He was a father, my friend, my mentor! And every time I hear anyone talk about him, or anytime I read his some of his writings! I smile . . . . Because he lived a good life, he lived long enough to see his kids grow and to see his grandchildren (18 of them) he was an achiever! And he'd NEVER be forgotten. Sleep well Alhaji Ikhazs Yakubu my father my friend ,my mentor!!!! Am sure NIPR (Nigerian Institute of Public Relations) would also not forget you! You left a significant mark with everything you did , everyone you knew and everywhere you went!!! Till we meet again!!!!
Wednesday 7 July 2010
RANDOM.......(Jez gotta luv me)
Pheeeeeew..... this week's been crazy mehn.... starting sunday... lost ma phone(my companion) yea my phone was my darling joh, never a dull moment... even when i was bored there was sumin to tweet about, pictures to take, a song to play, some one on bbm to talk to...and for the first time in a very loooong while i have had just one phone, i-phone screen broken, samsung i.c bad, and landline wont work in Benin republic.. so am phoneless, havent been able to reach my people, i miss talking to 'my menyana" Dammie, Bisola, i miss sending text messages to my siblings, ma mum.. bad enough was rushing down to Benin Republic (Cotonou) so i wont miss my first paper on monday, and my frenemies wont let me... mtcheeeeew....stupid player haters and rumour mongers... lmao am sure they wondering how i can manage to smile and be happy.. and i lost my phone in the process... most of my friends dont believe have lost my phone especially with the way i have handled it.... ehmmm havent thought bout the loss of my phone till now...to those who thought I'll never be able to do without my blackberry....hope i have proven you wrong.. its just a phone joh like Biola said sum1 will get me a Bold 5.. ehmmm... lol there's no Bold5 yet maybe Bold3, or back to my Gemini..cant wait to be done with exams.. even if I write just a few... cant wait to be outta Benin republic... I miss my Menyana.. I hope he's fine am sure mumsie woulda been trying to reach me, sent her a facebook message (lol, yea my momma is on facebook) and I thank God for Bisola and Darmy trying to help with my "thingz" in lagos.. love you both... My weeks been fine though, the many hello's (fake's n originals) and the flood on Pk10 (the street where school is) mehn have to put my legs inside just to get to school....yuck... and getting to see people who irritate the sh*t outta me (cos of thier snitching ways) . . . . . with all these though i have been my ever happy self... it always works for me.. dont ask how i do it... its God.... and for this reason, yu jez gotta love me..... okay gatta go its 9pm have to rush back home to read for my next paper tomorrow.... jez tot to blog.. it been a while..... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo....
P.S IGNORE MY MISTAKES.... doubt if there are any though......:P
P.S IGNORE MY MISTAKES.... doubt if there are any though......:P
Friday 11 June 2010
Another One Gone
Friday June 11, 11:30am
After my meal of Ewa agoyin (specially cooked beans with sauce) and bread, was about to sleep, when Biola got a call, er ex's kid sister had died,she died 11days ago, flipping hell, just when I had thought I was done with hearing stories of young people dying, just this morning I read on twitter that Nelson Mandela lost his great grand daughter in a car accident, She had just clocked 13. . . And so as we got ready to go to Sango (where the girl's folks stay) I kept thinking, my knees got weak! I put on my rumpled dress (cos there was no light) and we left the house! And throughout the journey I kept asking myself! What could have caused this girl's death! I searched for her on Facebook, went through her pictures, saved them, and kept zooming in on them. .
Twas a long ride, her mum came out to welcome us, very pretty woman!! Her face was bright, It had been 11days, she struck me as a very strong woman, I saw her dad too he looked calm, he was watching the opening ceremony of the world cup. Her big bro too had moved on. . . Wow must be the grace of God, like when people say "may God grant them the fortitude to bear the loss" this family was a typical example! Obviously God has been good to them! Her mum kept asking us if we wanted anything she was practically consoling us, I looked at a couple of pictures, she was a strong female. . At 26 "Soft" (as she was fondly called) had done so well for herself..
4:30pm I summoned up the courage to ask the "what's" and the "hows" I was told twas sickle cell AND asthma , just early this year I had read bout a 23yr old who died. He was a sickler too. . . Uhmnnn I had to go to google to read about sickle cell. .
5:13pm Am done reading can't say I learnt much though, Guess its all Gods will and timing. . We can't ask questions! We'd just pray it never happens again and for those of us left we ask for God's guidance and protection! God help Us all! We can never be too careful though, when its time its time.
R.I.P Wunmi "Soft"
To post or not to post??? All I can say is am happy for them, her Parents and her brother. Guess they've accepted their fate
After my meal of Ewa agoyin (specially cooked beans with sauce) and bread, was about to sleep, when Biola got a call, er ex's kid sister had died,she died 11days ago, flipping hell, just when I had thought I was done with hearing stories of young people dying, just this morning I read on twitter that Nelson Mandela lost his great grand daughter in a car accident, She had just clocked 13. . . And so as we got ready to go to Sango (where the girl's folks stay) I kept thinking, my knees got weak! I put on my rumpled dress (cos there was no light) and we left the house! And throughout the journey I kept asking myself! What could have caused this girl's death! I searched for her on Facebook, went through her pictures, saved them, and kept zooming in on them. .
Twas a long ride, her mum came out to welcome us, very pretty woman!! Her face was bright, It had been 11days, she struck me as a very strong woman, I saw her dad too he looked calm, he was watching the opening ceremony of the world cup. Her big bro too had moved on. . . Wow must be the grace of God, like when people say "may God grant them the fortitude to bear the loss" this family was a typical example! Obviously God has been good to them! Her mum kept asking us if we wanted anything she was practically consoling us, I looked at a couple of pictures, she was a strong female. . At 26 "Soft" (as she was fondly called) had done so well for herself..
4:30pm I summoned up the courage to ask the "what's" and the "hows" I was told twas sickle cell AND asthma , just early this year I had read bout a 23yr old who died. He was a sickler too. . . Uhmnnn I had to go to google to read about sickle cell. .
5:13pm Am done reading can't say I learnt much though, Guess its all Gods will and timing. . We can't ask questions! We'd just pray it never happens again and for those of us left we ask for God's guidance and protection! God help Us all! We can never be too careful though, when its time its time.
R.I.P Wunmi "Soft"
To post or not to post??? All I can say is am happy for them, her Parents and her brother. Guess they've accepted their fate
Sunday 30 May 2010
HHWA 2010 . . . my first experience and the list of winners
My First Hip Hop World Awards experience!
I enjoyed the night! Though 'twas supposed to start at 8, but didn't start until 11:30! Had no problem having to wait though except for the a.c in the hall which am not very used to! The awards started at about 11:45 or there about! Apparently Jedi was supposed to the be the anchor. But we didn't get to see him again.
You could see me hailing almost every artiste that performed or won an award! Yea yea I like good things like that! Lol! My best part of the awards was when artiste's did the did the Dagrin song. . . The tears couldn't help but fall, all the artiste's were on point!
And when Dagrin won the award for Best Rap album and his family and friends came to collect the award on his behalf! May his soul rest in perfect peace!
Also Kefee, ArtQuake,Obiwon,D'Prince,Y.Q,Jesse n Muna all did well with their performances!
The person in charge of the sound or whatever its called must have slept for a while, because he kept playing the wrong audio clips and announcing the wrong set of nominations! Lol
Every other thing was very okay (to me) maybe cos it was my first time! I had a blast, and I look forward to HHWA 2011. The winners were on point and I am happy for all the winners and I believe the best have won! Below are the names of the winners!
Best Rap single
Sample(Terry da Rapman ft Stereoman and Pheroushuz)
Artiste of the Year
Wande Coal
Album of the year
Mushin 2 Mohits(Wande Coal)
Best R n B/ Pop album
Mushin 2 Mohits(Wande Coal)
Song of the Year
Yori Yori(Bracket)
Next Rated
Skunki
Producer of The Year
Don Jazzy
Best Music Video
The Finest by Clarence Peters
Best Vocal Performance-Male-
No Stars - Darey
Best Vocal Performance-Female-
Keeper of my dreams - Lara george
Best Pop Single
You Bad(Wande coal)
Best Street Hop
Free madness(Terry G)
Lyricist on the roll
Mode 9
Revelation of the year
Wande Coal
Best Rap album
C.E.O (Dagrin)
Best Collabo of The Year
Kokoroko (Kefee ft Timaya)
Best Recording of the Year
Heaven Please (Timi Dakolo ft M.i)
Best R n B Single
Strong Thing (Banky)
I enjoyed the night! Though 'twas supposed to start at 8, but didn't start until 11:30! Had no problem having to wait though except for the a.c in the hall which am not very used to! The awards started at about 11:45 or there about! Apparently Jedi was supposed to the be the anchor. But we didn't get to see him again.
You could see me hailing almost every artiste that performed or won an award! Yea yea I like good things like that! Lol! My best part of the awards was when artiste's did the did the Dagrin song. . . The tears couldn't help but fall, all the artiste's were on point!
And when Dagrin won the award for Best Rap album and his family and friends came to collect the award on his behalf! May his soul rest in perfect peace!
Also Kefee, ArtQuake,Obiwon,D'Prince,Y.Q,Jesse n Muna all did well with their performances!
The person in charge of the sound or whatever its called must have slept for a while, because he kept playing the wrong audio clips and announcing the wrong set of nominations! Lol
Every other thing was very okay (to me) maybe cos it was my first time! I had a blast, and I look forward to HHWA 2011. The winners were on point and I am happy for all the winners and I believe the best have won! Below are the names of the winners!
Best Rap single
Sample(Terry da Rapman ft Stereoman and Pheroushuz)
Artiste of the Year
Wande Coal
Album of the year
Mushin 2 Mohits(Wande Coal)
Best R n B/ Pop album
Mushin 2 Mohits(Wande Coal)
Song of the Year
Yori Yori(Bracket)
Next Rated
Skunki
Producer of The Year
Don Jazzy
Best Music Video
The Finest by Clarence Peters
Best Vocal Performance-Male-
No Stars - Darey
Best Vocal Performance-Female-
Keeper of my dreams - Lara george
Best Pop Single
You Bad(Wande coal)
Best Street Hop
Free madness(Terry G)
Lyricist on the roll
Mode 9
Revelation of the year
Wande Coal
Best Rap album
C.E.O (Dagrin)
Best Collabo of The Year
Kokoroko (Kefee ft Timaya)
Best Recording of the Year
Heaven Please (Timi Dakolo ft M.i)
Best R n B Single
Strong Thing (Banky)
Wednesday 19 May 2010
Another Birthday :)
Anyone that has seen me or heard me talk about my birthday tomorrow 20 of May, would wonder if I am going to clock 10, or if I am expecting a big party with many candles on my cake with my mummy and daddy being there, or a perfect sweet 16 birthday party with a buggatti (lol) as my gift! Hell No! I can explain. . It feels so good have made it through yet another year! God had been faithful. . And the past year was themed "Live,Love and Learn" in the past year I learnt to
LIVE
I learnt to live, and always breathe. . Whatever the situation! To Live each day like it is my last, Live for the moment, enjoy each second, be grateful to God whatever the situation! Yea that's all I have been doing Living my life!
I learnt to LOVE (again)
Yea, I have so much love to go round. . But in the last few months I learnt more on the values of Love and I Understand what it means, that it doesn't mean the many cars, or the diamond rings, or the brazzilian weavon or lacewigs. It means much more, it means having someone to cry to, someone to talk to and someone to confide in. . . Someone to care for, someone to be there for. . In D'banj's words "love is a beautiful thing". . . I learnt to show more love to the needy, the homeless, the motherless. . I learnt to love more people, family and friends. . I learnt to replace "hatred" with love. . . And on the 2nd rule of life. . Accomplishment
LEARN
Learning is a continuous process of living and so for every right or wrong that happened I haven't capitalized on them, I have taken them to be the few of the many lessons I have to learn as long as I live. .
And so my birthday is in less than 1hour, am grateful to God and though as excited as I was today, there was this 5mins of today that I shed tears inside. . . it could get better and so before its 12 I have a birthday wish and I know God is everywhere! Dear Lord I need U to bless me, so I can be a blessing to others! Amen!! Happy Birthday to Me!!!!
LIVE
I learnt to live, and always breathe. . Whatever the situation! To Live each day like it is my last, Live for the moment, enjoy each second, be grateful to God whatever the situation! Yea that's all I have been doing Living my life!
I learnt to LOVE (again)
Yea, I have so much love to go round. . But in the last few months I learnt more on the values of Love and I Understand what it means, that it doesn't mean the many cars, or the diamond rings, or the brazzilian weavon or lacewigs. It means much more, it means having someone to cry to, someone to talk to and someone to confide in. . . Someone to care for, someone to be there for. . In D'banj's words "love is a beautiful thing". . . I learnt to show more love to the needy, the homeless, the motherless. . I learnt to love more people, family and friends. . I learnt to replace "hatred" with love. . . And on the 2nd rule of life. . Accomplishment
LEARN
Learning is a continuous process of living and so for every right or wrong that happened I haven't capitalized on them, I have taken them to be the few of the many lessons I have to learn as long as I live. .
And so my birthday is in less than 1hour, am grateful to God and though as excited as I was today, there was this 5mins of today that I shed tears inside. . . it could get better and so before its 12 I have a birthday wish and I know God is everywhere! Dear Lord I need U to bless me, so I can be a blessing to others! Amen!! Happy Birthday to Me!!!!
Monday 17 May 2010
R.I.P Dagrin
When I heard the news of the accident! I cried my eyes out! I saw the pictures and the first thing that came to my mind was "God please keep him for Us"! I made it my point of duty to call our mutual friend at the hospital! Who sounded better after the third day!
We kept on saying prayers, he got better! Then the first death rumour started, we prayed it was a lie, gladly it was, then the second rumour I remember cursing the originators of the rumour!
Then yesterday 22nd of April, I heard what I thought was a rumour, I tried to call Ola Badmus, he wasn't picking,Tunde, his manager wasn't picking his call either, a couple of people weren't! Then all their phones were switched off!
Then the blackberry broadcasts started coming in, people changing profile pictures and updating thier blackberry,facebook and twitter status messages! Then I made that final call, and the response I go
Then I remembered my bestie Darmy's accident, they were on eko bridge with a couple of other people together! I was told he joked about it and was still able to liven the arena! He was always full of life!
Just last week at the Coca-Cola event, it was his turn to perform, and my friends ran inside to watch him perform! And on our way out he was in his car, the black Nissan! He was still full of life, I saw him for the last time,few days before the accident! And now we won't get to see him anymore! When I was going through the hip-hop world awards nominations, I was going to vote for him! I admired his courage n his hustle!
Its going to be really hard! If you ever met him in person, You will understand why a lot of us can't seem to get over it! How can I watch a Dagrin Music video,or hear a song and not shed tears, How? He was just 26 for Christ sake, but then Who am I to question God's authority? He gives and he takes! Dagrin was successful! Yes he did well for himself, his fans and friends loved him!
Even though we will never know the truth bout that accident, which I strongly feel something is not right about! And yea people say it was relapse and negligence on the part of LUTH! We can only ask questions! But he is gone! May his soul rest in perfect peace! Sun re o , Omo Ola,
RIP. Olayitan Olanipekun Oladapo!
As day comes and Night falls for the rest of our lives we'll miss you, and even though life must go on, We still mourn while wishing you were still here with us! We love you still
We kept on saying prayers, he got better! Then the first death rumour started, we prayed it was a lie, gladly it was, then the second rumour I remember cursing the originators of the rumour!
Then yesterday 22nd of April, I heard what I thought was a rumour, I tried to call Ola Badmus, he wasn't picking,Tunde, his manager wasn't picking his call either, a couple of people weren't! Then all their phones were switched off!
Then the blackberry broadcasts started coming in, people changing profile pictures and updating thier blackberry,facebook and twitter status messages! Then I made that final call, and the response I go
Then I remembered my bestie Darmy's accident, they were on eko bridge with a couple of other people together! I was told he joked about it and was still able to liven the arena! He was always full of life!
Just last week at the Coca-Cola event, it was his turn to perform, and my friends ran inside to watch him perform! And on our way out he was in his car, the black Nissan! He was still full of life, I saw him for the last time,few days before the accident! And now we won't get to see him anymore! When I was going through the hip-hop world awards nominations, I was going to vote for him! I admired his courage n his hustle!
Its going to be really hard! If you ever met him in person, You will understand why a lot of us can't seem to get over it! How can I watch a Dagrin Music video,or hear a song and not shed tears, How? He was just 26 for Christ sake, but then Who am I to question God's authority? He gives and he takes! Dagrin was successful! Yes he did well for himself, his fans and friends loved him!
Even though we will never know the truth bout that accident, which I strongly feel something is not right about! And yea people say it was relapse and negligence on the part of LUTH! We can only ask questions! But he is gone! May his soul rest in perfect peace! Sun re o , Omo Ola,
RIP. Olayitan Olanipekun Oladapo!
As day comes and Night falls for the rest of our lives we'll miss you, and even though life must go on, We still mourn while wishing you were still here with us! We love you still
Reflection.... (originally written April27)
Its 4.am and am up, not because I don't want to sleep, but the inspiration to scribble down something is there, and I had to wake up to write this. . Am reflecting on the concept of "LIFE" Sometimes I ask my self questions like "Is anything really worth the fight and struggle" "if we will all die, why not just live a care-free life" and A line from Tupac's "Running" that hits me is "Why am I fighting to live when am just living to die" all these thoughts makes me want to relent and just sit back,but HELL NO, I refuse to curl back into my shell, and leave my progress level stagnant! Just because I know death is inevitable, and I don't know when time will be up doesn't mean I shouldn't forge ahead and make an impact!
Yes its inevitable and no one prays to go too early! But while I am alive, and its not God's time yet! NO WAY! Am going to live my life to the fullest! Love as many people that are willing to let me love them! Live a fulfilled Life, help as many as I can. And as for HATE! I refuse to be a part of it!
And am not trying to get all churchy and all, but without God, there is no Me! And I know there's a God because that's the only explanation I can give as to why I am still alive today! Am inspired to Live my Life, knowing that even though I am not in control of existence,and I am not assured of my next minute! How I spend it matters a lot! What Legacies would I leave behind? And even though human beings are unbelievably inconsiderate and wicked! I have decided to do my best, live a good life, trust in God at all times. . . It would . It would pay someday, if not on earth in Heaven. . . . So help me God
Yes its inevitable and no one prays to go too early! But while I am alive, and its not God's time yet! NO WAY! Am going to live my life to the fullest! Love as many people that are willing to let me love them! Live a fulfilled Life, help as many as I can. And as for HATE! I refuse to be a part of it!
And am not trying to get all churchy and all, but without God, there is no Me! And I know there's a God because that's the only explanation I can give as to why I am still alive today! Am inspired to Live my Life, knowing that even though I am not in control of existence,and I am not assured of my next minute! How I spend it matters a lot! What Legacies would I leave behind? And even though human beings are unbelievably inconsiderate and wicked! I have decided to do my best, live a good life, trust in God at all times. . . It would . It would pay someday, if not on earth in Heaven. . . . So help me God
Finally......
Been meaning to blog since like forever..... and finally i decided to start my own blog.... not just for people to read.. but just somewhere to go to and pour out my mind when I want to.. More like an online Diary that's been made public :D ... I love to scribble down stuff.. whenever the inspiration comes... and so I finally get the Inspiration to start my own blog.... I hope I can be constant tho.....
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